Welcome to the dollhouse ...

How hard can being a sugar baby be ? .....Harder than I thought .

Hello everyone and allow me to introduce myself .

I am in my late 20's and I am new to the sugar world . After a lot of careful research and thoughts - I have decided to join in on the fun . A little background info on me , I am a college graduate , I actually have a masters degree . I live in gorgeous Florida and spend most of time , at work . Ugh- lame I know :)

I was really hesitant to doing this but something clicked in my head the other day ,when I was about 21.

I started working at a pharmaceutical distributing / sales company as a receptionist . It was just a job to make ends meet while I was in school .. and I think that this is where I came in contact with my first SD/SB relationship...but with A LOT of  strings attached.

He was 36 , I was 21 and healing over a very hard break up of a 5 year relationship . He was the owner of the company . A Clooney look a like , salt and peeper hair and all  . He was handsome , powerful , intriguing and SINGLE. Recently divorced , and VERY successful . I never had an attraction to him , until one Friday I wore a high waist black skirt from Express and he mentioned to his assistant he thought I was " hot " .... I giggle and ignored it . I went to say goodbye to him that Friday and he asked me what I was doing over the weekend ..  I told him I was just getting my hair done and hanging out at home . He said he was going away for business and in a VERY BRAVE , not like me at all move .. I gave him my number and told him to call me if he gets bored . .

I guess he got bored .

I had a text from him by Saturday . We talked about everything from our backgrounds , to what we wanted out of life ... It started out innocently , and then he asked me out for dinner . I thought I could NOT do this , he's my boss . BUT DAMN was he good looking .

We set up a dinner date , for the following week when he got back . He was in Vegas for a convention , we kept in touch while he was out of town . His assistant knew of our communication and I could barely contain my smile when he called the office . The week flew by .. and it was Saturday , time for our date.

He picked me up from my mom's house and he actually walked up to the door and knocked . He had flowers , I was melting . I set them down and introduced him to my mother who was clearly taken back by his good looks . He was wearing khaki dress pants , a black Tommy Bahama shirt and the most gorgeous Rolex I had ever seen . He opened the door of his car for me , a blue Lexus SUV . We went to get sushi , and the conversation flowed easily over a few glasses of wine and did he KNOW his wine .. He was an avid wine collector and had visited Napa Valley " many times .. " He had a " Mr. Big " from Sex and The City charm .. He was slowly growing on me .. and I liked it . I liked him ...

We had the most mind blowing kiss when he dropped me off , and just like that .. I knew this could be the start of something great .

We decided to keep things on the hush hush for a while ,  A few months later co-worker invited us to his wife's baby shower , " Mr. Clooney "  said we should go.. As a couple . Almost like a " coming out " party ..I agreed . He picked me up and  and I walked in holding his hand . " He called me " Little One " ..

I felt proud , I feel powerful and I felt like I was falling in love with him .

I wish he was still around ... May he rest in peace . 3/2/1970 - 10/16/2010

" I miss your tan skin , your sweet smile , so good to me so right ....and how you held me in your arms that September night the first time you ever saw me cry . Maybe this is wishful thinking , probably mindless dreaming but if we loved again I swear I'd love you right , I'd go back in time and change it but I cant ..so if a chain is on your door I understand..  and this is me swallowing my pride standing in front you saying I'm sorry for that night and I go back to December . It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you , wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine .. I'd go back to December turn around and make it alright , I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind .. I go back to December all the time "